The Reason Why I Went to Form 6

Here I am again, in Kubong Secondary School. I never thought I will continue to be a student in that school again. But this time, as a Pre-U student. Unfortunately, the town I am currently living does not have a college for Pre-U students. Unlike many other towns, they had their own college.
Actually, I was initially applying for a bunch of study institutes. Firstly, matriculation college. But I was told that I was not selected. So, cross out that one. Next, UPU. While waiting for it, I had to be a Form 6 student, which I initially disliked. When the UPU result came out, I was told that I did not get anything. Nothing at all! Out of 12 courses and universities, I got Z-E-R-O. Yeah. I'm so pathetic. That is why I don't get anything. Thank you.
However, I really cannot tell the reason why I was 'REJECTED' from these applications. The last place or refuge that I can go is Form 6. It is not all bad right? I can still pursue my dream, even if it might be a bit harder than the other applications that I wanted.
Well, self-sympathy will not make me go anywhere unless I had to prove that I can do it. To be honest, my parents are working for the government. I am not loaded like most of my Chinese friends and acquaintances. They also had the same fate as mine but they had the money to study in the private universities.
I'm feeling so down, actually. Born as mixed Chinese and Iban. But 95% of the community see me as Chinese which the fact is I am not fully Chinese. That is why I don't get rights in my own country. So readers, if you are not a Chinese, don't marry Chinese. Because your children will end up like me. Unless if you're a Chinese woman who marry other races then it is a different story.
I could not feel the justice in my country. So much for unity, LIES. Most of my friends of this one common type of race(you'll get me if you're a local), had worse SPM 2015 results than mine got to go good government colleges and government universities. Yeah, it is clearly that I am hoping on government which eventually turned down my hope. It feels like I am being thrown into Form 6. Many might or already look down on me because of having good SPM 2015 result had made me end up in Form 6 rather than colleges or universities.
People might say that I am making up this kind of situation but I only want to tell the truth. I don't want to stir up racial issues, or what they call it 'racist' or anything. But this is my issue. An issue to be told, not a propaganda, not a complaint, not a rebel or anything that might cause serious trouble. It just that, now I can see the world clearer and now I am living in the real world. I did not know about this when I was younger because they were not in the books or newspapers. So, I guess I'll live my life to the fullest. What they say, YOLO.